How come I can't stay sober?

Because the daily struggles of life sober seems do-able. Or at least not life threatening so it’s entirely possible. But it requires presence. It requires a structure because even if you are a free spirit who couldn’t care about taxes or insurance or the latest trending chemical peel, you have to be present enough to know when to eat, sleep, bath, etc… you have to be present enough to judge the car coming down the road. Do you have enough tie to walk across? Well it seems trivial but at the end of each day these are the things that our body feels when we get into bed.

Being present is what we addicts escape from. 🥂

it’s tiring being present.

Ive been pretending to be okay and acting as normal as possible, but Im actually completely heartbroken after a recent breakup. Its painful and really affecting me, to the point where I cant concentrate at work, Ive lost my appetite, I cant sleep, and It feels as if my whole world has been turned upside down. I loved him so much. He said so many cruel things to me and it made me realize he must not have loved me the way I loved him, or he wouldnt have said such horrible things. How do I handle the heartbreak and why cant I accept that he didnt love me and just forget about him?

the robot and zombi don’t even bother to think about the task again. We are just the average human and we will think about it and talk about it and try improve it and it is all so fucking draining.

Yes the life an addict can be very difficult too but any robot or zombie can do the task.

How come I can't stay sober?

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